gregory owen grieco (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
gregoryogrieco) wrote2018-01-06 01:08 pm
gregoryogrieco) wrote2018-01-06 01:08 pm
yes i am still alive
i miss mary-eleanor fiercely.
will i ever get over her? ever? and why do i love her so? WHY?
here i am. in a new year. not writing squat. recovering from my lung surgery. and all i can think about is seeing my ex-wife. but it is not the reality of mary. it is my idealized concept of mary. of the good days so long ago now. i would do anything to have my loving wifey back.
my lung is healing, my side is healing, slowly and painfully, but it's getting there. and something super wonderful happened yesterday when i got home from mom's and the hospital. clara popped back up!! i missed her too! so that is a good thing. but it does not mitigate my pain and loneliness.
i am a hurting unit, and will be for some time yet.
so here ya go< into 2018! i have only been alone since September and it feels like half my life..
will i ever get over her? ever? and why do i love her so? WHY?
here i am. in a new year. not writing squat. recovering from my lung surgery. and all i can think about is seeing my ex-wife. but it is not the reality of mary. it is my idealized concept of mary. of the good days so long ago now. i would do anything to have my loving wifey back.
my lung is healing, my side is healing, slowly and painfully, but it's getting there. and something super wonderful happened yesterday when i got home from mom's and the hospital. clara popped back up!! i missed her too! so that is a good thing. but it does not mitigate my pain and loneliness.
i am a hurting unit, and will be for some time yet.
so here ya go< into 2018! i have only been alone since September and it feels like half my life..